Thursday, November 29, 2012

I've been slacking

So, I'm behind on updating here and on YouTube.  Hubby is home sick tonight, so I'm not doing a video (I hate having an audience...lol).  I will update here, though.

I went to my psych eval on Tuesday.  He asked questions about my diet history, how my weight has been all my life, how my childhood was, if I understood the complications of the surgery, and how I'd eat afterwards.  Then he asked me if I could die from the surgery and I said, yes, but I am trying to concentrate on the positive.  Then I told him that I am not worried about dying, just leaving behind my husband and my brother.  He thought my calories that I aim for was too high, 1550, for my activity level.  He recommended 1200, but to see what the nutritionist next week says.  When I saw my psychiatrist, yesterday, she recommended 1000!  Whoa!  So I'm aiming for 1300 calories a day until I see the nutritionist.

Speaking of seeing my psychiatrist, she agreed to up my dosage of Wellbutrin and take me off the Celexa and Abilify.  If I am to become hypomanic, I'll have to go back on the Abilify, though.  So far, I am a little bit down, but it'll take time to adjust.  I'm pretty positive I'll be fine, though.

I got a talking scale, today.  Ordered it from Amazon.com.  Thing is, it can't get it to talk, because my body shakes whenever I get on it!  The reading on the scale keeps changing and doesn't stabilize because of my shaking!  I guess I'll just have to have my husband look at the scale for me, still!  When he weighs himself, it'll talk to him!  *sigh*

Be Careful

So I've been a bit bummed, lately, about my weight loss.  A friend on Facebook posted the following photo quote and I really needed to see it.


MFP Stats for 11-29-2012

Sunday, November 25, 2012

MFP Stats 11-25-2012

Scared

I'm scared that I've passed the point of no return.  It's so painful for me to walk these days or to ride the exercise bike.  My knees literally scream out in pain when I do walk.  You can hear the cracking noise as I walk or attempt to ride the bike.  This makes it hard for me to exercise.  Not to mention, I sprained my left elbow so bad that chair aerobics are near impossible!  The pain is radiating up to my shoulder and down to my fingers, it's so bad.  I have pain killers and do use them, but they don't touch the pain of my knees or elbow!  I know I should be grateful that I have legs to walk and an elbow to sprain, but it's all hindering my ability to exercise--a requirement for my medically supervised weight loss.  My Rheumatologist said to concentrate on diet first, but he is not my Primary Care Physician nor my Bariatric Surgeon.  I'm afraid I won't be approved for weight loss surgery or if I do have the surgery, the knee pain will still be there.  I know I should fight it, though, but I just can't find the energy to do so yet.  I'm just a big mess right now, physically and emotionally.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-22-2012

Happy Thanksgiving! Days 21 & 22 of Thanks!

21. a disappointment or fear - I have a fear of heights!

22. a book - I can't choose just one book.



Modelmydiet.com

Lost weight

Despite my crappy eating, I've still lost four more pounds!  That makes my total loss 11 pounds, so far!  29 more to go until I'll be ready for surgery!  I only had to lose 37 to get below 400, but I want to lose more!  Never know how much difference the surgeon's scale will be from mine or my primary care physician's!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

MFP Stats 11-20-2012

Very Appropriate

I saw this graphic today and could tell it was meant for me to see.  Not that the person who posted it did so for me, but that the graphic was speaking to me.  See, I've been eating junk food the past three days.  We've either ordered out or have gotten fast food.  I just haven't felt like eating the food we have at home, as it doesn't have any taste.  Yea, I know, add spices or something.  Hubby tries, but I am so picky.  I know it's wrong to do this, I really do.  It's not going to help me in my journey to lose weight.  I've also been drinking soda, which doesn't help.  I'm not supposed to have any caffeine or carbonated beverages after surgery.  I had given them up, but started having a Diet Coke every so often and now I'm hooked on the caffeine again!  So, here I go...giving it up all over again!  Anyway, I should stop with the pity party and add the graphic so you know what I mean.  It made me realize the answer to my problems.


Days 19 & 20 of Thanksgiving


19. a favorite piece of clothing:  my housecoat.  It keeps me warm!

20.  a keepsake: my rosary beads that were used during my father's funeral.



Sunday, November 18, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-18-2012

18th Day of Thanksgiving

18 - saying/quote/scripture:  "Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment Would you capture it or just let it slip? " - Eminem


Thursday, November 15, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-15-2012

Yesterday's Doctor's Visit

I've lost 7 pounds since I saw her last month!  I'm kind of disappointed with myself for it, but I will take what I can get.  I think it's because I'm impatient and want this surgery ASAP!  I'm going to start watching my carbohydrate intake.  I've lost 30 pounds in three months before doing that!

Two goals I made for myself were to increase my time on the bicycle and to stop 'grazing!'  I'm to meet these expectations before I see the doctor next month!

I was supposed to do fasting blood work today, but didn't fast.  I was so hungry after I woke up from a nap last night!  So, we ended up eating breakfast early.  I will have to go next week on a day when hubby is off work!

Day 15 of Thanks

15.  A recipe:  I don't know of any!  I can make tuna casserole and that's it!  LOL!


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-13-2012


Day 13 of Thanksgiving



13.  something old:  my rosary beads.  They're not too old, maybe ten years at the most.  They've been blessed and were used in my father's casket during his viewing.  The funeral home had them wrapped around his hands and they gave them to me, afterwards.


Monday, November 12, 2012

More Appointments

I made the followup call to my surgeon for my sleep study.  Turns out they had already left a message for an ENT doctor's office to call me and make an appointment with me.  They called, today, and I have an appointment December 6th, at a different clinic, to see the doctor.  I wonder if they think I have obstructive sleep apnea?  It is hard for me to breathe while I am sleeping on my back because of all the weight on me.  It's like it all moves upward towards my face when I'm laying on my back!  The surgeon's nurse said I might need more tests, so I am very curious now!  I thought it would be just having to get a prescription for a CPAP machine!  Well, I guess I'll know in a few weeks!

The exercise bike arrived today!  It's really nice and high quality!  I like it, but it's very hard for me to do right now!  I barely made it two minutes because of my knees!  It was like bones cracking in my right knee, I could hear the popping out loud even!  I will probably take a pain pill prior to riding it next time!  I really want to use it more!  I didn't buy it for nothing!  LOL!

30 days of thanks--catching up to day 12!

10 - a time of day: nights, early mornings.

11 - a tradition: don't have any.

12 - a gadget: my android smartphone.


MFP Stats fir 11-12-2012

Not enough calories, but I'm not hungry.


Sunday, November 11, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-11-2012

Add me on My Fitness Pal:  christina_fisher


Sleep Study

Last night's sleep study went well.  I do have sleep apnea, though.  About halfway through the study, the sleep tech put me on the CPAP.  I slept much better with it on.  I didn't want to get out of bed because I was so comfy!  LOL!  Anyway, I just have to followup with the surgeon, who ordered the test, and get a prescription for a CPAP machine.  It'll require me giving up my small refrigerator, though, as it sits on my nightstand next to my bed.  At least I'll start getting a better night's sleep and maybe even eight hours a night, finally!  Well, day's sleep, as hubby and I sleep during the day!  

I see my primary care physician on Wednesday and will do my official weigh-in then.  My scale says I gained, which I'll be mad if I did!  I've been sticking to my calorie limit and eating like I should pre-op.  Even though I don't have to 'til two weeks before the surgery!  It's recommended by the dietician that we use it for a guideline for meal ideas and my friend said she followed it and lost weight.  I did have breakfast at McDonald's this morning, though, but even so I should be within my calorie limit or not much above it.  I allow myself 1550 calories a day.  

Tomorrow, our exercise bike should be here!  Once it's set up, I'm going to try it out.  It's supposed to support 350 pounds, so hopefully it'll work out.  I know I'm more than that, but I've used office chairs that support that amount of weight, successfully.  We'll see!  Using it will help me burn some calories, finally!  :)

Friday, November 9, 2012

I almost gave this up

I almost gave this journal up!  I only have one subscriber and not many comment!  Then I realized that this isn't for anyone but myself!  This is for me to track my progress, my emotions, etc. during this weight loss journey of mine!  If someone happens to read it, then that's great!  If someone happens to comment, well, that's even better!  ;-)  I hope to someday inspire others, but for now this is my space!

PS - after the cut is a bit TMI.


30 Days of Thanks - Day 9

9. a blog:  I must say http://www.300poundsdown.com/ is really inspiring.  She gives me hope in my own weight loss journey!


MFP Stats 11-09-2012


Thursday, November 8, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-08-2012


No MFP stats, yesterday, either!

I was bad, yesterday, because I broke down and had Chinese takeout.  Today is a new day, and we've been grocery shopping!  We bought fresh fruit and veggies, along with a bunch of other good healthy foods for the next two weeks!  Tonight, it's grilled chicken salad for dinner!  I can't wait, I love my salad!  I've already logged my food ahead of time, so I should be at or below my allowed calorie intake for the day!

Saturday is my sleep study!  I'm wide awake now, as hubby and I napped before grocery shopping early this morning.  Hubby's sleeping, as he works nights.  I usually keep his hours, but the sleep study is at night.  I'm trying to sleep at night until then, so that I can get a good night's rest in for the sleep study!  I hope that I don't have sleep apnea!  Hubby's told me that I don't, but you never know.  I haven't fell asleep during the day, except for the nap last night, since I've started Wellbutrin XL for my depression.  I think I was sleeping so much before because of my depression.  So, maybe I don't have it!  I'm crossing my fingers, as I don't want to have to wear a CPAP.  If I have to, I will, because I know if sleep apnea's left untreated, it can cause heart problems.  Anyhow, I have a cat and a dog that like to chew on things.  Usually the dog will chew when we're gone, so I can shut the door, but the cat is another story.  He'll chew anything at anytime!  I could just imagine him chewing a hole through one of the hoses as I'm wearing the CPAP!  Guess I'll just have to keep extras on hand if it comes down to it!  LOL! 

Oh, the other day when I went to my rheumatologist, I weighed in at 430#.  I changed my weight ticker, even though it was a two-pound gain.  Hopefully, I'll stay on track and show a loss when I see my primary care physician next week!

Our exercise bike should be here on Monday.  We made the room for it in the dining room.  I don't know how much cycling I'll be able to handle at first, so I had ordered a new chair that I can do my chair aerobics in.  That will be here, today!   After that, I'll have no excuses to not exercise!  Just procrastination, which I'm really good at.  :(

30 days of thanksgiving - day 8

8.  a restaurant:  I'd have to say it was Ponderosa Steakhouse.  I miss that place since it shut down.  All good, though, as I'm not supposed to eat out, anymore!  LOL!


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

No MFP Stats 11-6-2012

None today.  I completed my diary on the laptop, and didn't get a screenshot.  Said I'd be like 417 after five weeks if I kept my calories the same, though.  I don't think calorie-counting is working for me.  I'm half-tempted to do Atkins again!  I'm going to do the Pre-Op diet like my friend recommended, though.  It's more protein, veggies, and diary, than carbs, or so it seems.  Hopefully, it will work for me!  Eating carbs just seems to make me want more.

30 Days of Thanksgiving - Day 7

Somehow I'm ahead of myself, but oh well.

7. a scent - Dragon's Blood incense!  I love it! 



Monday, November 5, 2012

30 Days of Thanksgiving - Day 6

6.  A pair of shoes:  Well, I have only two pairs of shoes and they are the same color and style.  They're white tennis shoes from Walmart, with velcro straps.


MFP Stats 11-05-2012


Future Exercise Bike

Ordered a Nordic Track GX5.0 exercise bike for hubby and I.  It supports up to 350 pounds!  Can't wait for it to arrive so that I can start using it!  :)


Saturday, November 3, 2012

MFP Stats for 11-03-2012


Confessions

I've been snacking.  I shouldn't be.  I've also drank a few Diet Cokes here and there.  I shouldn't be doing that, either.  I need to stop.  I've got a plan and that's to try and follow the Pre-Op diet as close to possible, after we go grocery shopping this Thursday AM coming up.  The only 'snack' that I will allow myself is my two glasses of soy milk each day from now on!  I've also been drinking A LOT of Crystal Light and am going to change that.  It's 10 calories per bottle and I drink up to 12 bottles of water.  That's 120 empty calories!  No more, it's either plain water or Propel Zero.  Only CL at meals, until Post-Op.  That is when I can no longer drink with my meals.

Stepped on the scale, yesterday, and it said I gained six pounds.  I did not record it, because it could've been water in my system.  I haven't been going to sleep during the day when my husband sleeps.  I usually sit in bed on the laptop or read my weight loss surgery "Bible" they gave us at the orientation.  Therefore, I drink water.  I've also been sleeping at night, which I'm going to try and continue to do until after the sleep study next Saturday night.  I seem to be more awake since I've been on the Wellbutrin, even though it's only been a few days.

I'm also not going to count my walking around the house from room to room as exercise for now, as it makes me feel like I can eat more calories!  So, until the surgery, I am not going to count it on MyFitnessPal as calories burned.

30 Days of Thanksgiving -- Day 4

4. a favorite snack -- I'm not supposed to snack anymore, but an old favorite is Classic Lays!


VSG - the procedure I will have done next year.


Thursday, November 1, 2012

30 Days of Thanks

1. a person -- my husband.  I love him so much. 


25 Common Food & Nutrition Myths

Myth 1: Your stomach will shrink if you eat less.  
FACT: The only way to physically shrink your stomach is through surgical procedures. Your stomach expands to accommodate the amount of food that you eat and goes back to its original size once the food passes on to the intestines. The only effect cutting down on the amount of food will have on your stomach is your appetite but not the size of the stomach itself. 


MFP results for 11-01-2012

Look me up if you're on MyFitnessPal:  TinaF2014.


Visit with my Psychiatrist

She was very happy that I am pursuing weight loss surgery.  She tried to suggest a program that combined diet pills and diet to help me lose the 30 pounds that I need to before surgery, but it was very expensive!  I explained that my PCP already offered to prescribe Phentermine but I refused.  I don't like the side effects. 

I did mention the lack of motivation that I have for school, though.  It seems to have started around the same time she lowered my dose of Celexa.  She was concerned about the high dose I was on before.  She prescribed some Wellbutrin because she said it's likely that depression is causing it.  She also said she'd like to see me in counseling and I told her I was going to look into it after the surgery.  Right now I don't drive and have to rely on my husband or brother, which limits the days and time that I am open.  Once I lose weight I should be able to fit behind the steering wheel of my car!  I was able to before I traded my Taurus in, but I had to have the seat back and the steering wheel up as high as they would go!  I wasn't comfortable with that setup at all!  Anyway, I see counseling in my future!  For now, I hope the Wellbutrin works!