Thursday, November 29, 2012
I went to my psych eval on Tuesday. He asked questions about my diet history, how my weight has been all my life, how my childhood was, if I understood the complications of the surgery, and how I'd eat afterwards. Then he asked me if I could die from the surgery and I said, yes, but I am trying to concentrate on the positive. Then I told him that I am not worried about dying, just leaving behind my husband and my brother. He thought my calories that I aim for was too high, 1550, for my activity level. He recommended 1200, but to see what the nutritionist next week says. When I saw my psychiatrist, yesterday, she recommended 1000! Whoa! So I'm aiming for 1300 calories a day until I see the nutritionist.
Speaking of seeing my psychiatrist, she agreed to up my dosage of Wellbutrin and take me off the Celexa and Abilify. If I am to become hypomanic, I'll have to go back on the Abilify, though. So far, I am a little bit down, but it'll take time to adjust. I'm pretty positive I'll be fine, though.
I got a talking scale, today. Ordered it from Amazon.com. Thing is, it can't get it to talk, because my body shakes whenever I get on it! The reading on the scale keeps changing and doesn't stabilize because of my shaking! I guess I'll just have to have my husband look at the scale for me, still! When he weighs himself, it'll talk to him! *sigh*
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Despite my crappy eating, I've still lost four more pounds! That makes my total loss 11 pounds, so far! 29 more to go until I'll be ready for surgery! I only had to lose 37 to get below 400, but I want to lose more! Never know how much difference the surgeon's scale will be from mine or my primary care physician's!
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Two goals I made for myself were to increase my time on the bicycle and to stop 'grazing!' I'm to meet these expectations before I see the doctor next month!
I was supposed to do fasting blood work today, but didn't fast. I was so hungry after I woke up from a nap last night! So, we ended up eating breakfast early. I will have to go next week on a day when hubby is off work!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
13. something old: my rosary beads. They're not too old, maybe ten years at the most. They've been blessed and were used in my father's casket during his viewing. The funeral home had them wrapped around his hands and they gave them to me, afterwards.
Monday, November 12, 2012
The exercise bike arrived today! It's really nice and high quality! I like it, but it's very hard for me to do right now! I barely made it two minutes because of my knees! It was like bones cracking in my right knee, I could hear the popping out loud even! I will probably take a pain pill prior to riding it next time! I really want to use it more! I didn't buy it for nothing! LOL!
Sunday, November 11, 2012
I see my primary care physician on Wednesday and will do my official weigh-in then. My scale says I gained, which I'll be mad if I did! I've been sticking to my calorie limit and eating like I should pre-op. Even though I don't have to 'til two weeks before the surgery! It's recommended by the dietician that we use it for a guideline for meal ideas and my friend said she followed it and lost weight. I did have breakfast at McDonald's this morning, though, but even so I should be within my calorie limit or not much above it. I allow myself 1550 calories a day.
Tomorrow, our exercise bike should be here! Once it's set up, I'm going to try it out. It's supposed to support 350 pounds, so hopefully it'll work out. I know I'm more than that, but I've used office chairs that support that amount of weight, successfully. We'll see! Using it will help me burn some calories, finally! :)
Friday, November 9, 2012
PS - after the cut is a bit TMI.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Saturday is my sleep study! I'm wide awake now, as hubby and I napped before grocery shopping early this morning. Hubby's sleeping, as he works nights. I usually keep his hours, but the sleep study is at night. I'm trying to sleep at night until then, so that I can get a good night's rest in for the sleep study! I hope that I don't have sleep apnea! Hubby's told me that I don't, but you never know. I haven't fell asleep during the day, except for the nap last night, since I've started Wellbutrin XL for my depression. I think I was sleeping so much before because of my depression. So, maybe I don't have it! I'm crossing my fingers, as I don't want to have to wear a CPAP. If I have to, I will, because I know if sleep apnea's left untreated, it can cause heart problems. Anyhow, I have a cat and a dog that like to chew on things. Usually the dog will chew when we're gone, so I can shut the door, but the cat is another story. He'll chew anything at anytime! I could just imagine him chewing a hole through one of the hoses as I'm wearing the CPAP! Guess I'll just have to keep extras on hand if it comes down to it! LOL!
Oh, the other day when I went to my rheumatologist, I weighed in at 430#. I changed my weight ticker, even though it was a two-pound gain. Hopefully, I'll stay on track and show a loss when I see my primary care physician next week!
Our exercise bike should be here on Monday. We made the room for it in the dining room. I don't know how much cycling I'll be able to handle at first, so I had ordered a new chair that I can do my chair aerobics in. That will be here, today! After that, I'll have no excuses to not exercise! Just procrastination, which I'm really good at. :(
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Stepped on the scale, yesterday, and it said I gained six pounds. I did not record it, because it could've been water in my system. I haven't been going to sleep during the day when my husband sleeps. I usually sit in bed on the laptop or read my weight loss surgery "Bible" they gave us at the orientation. Therefore, I drink water. I've also been sleeping at night, which I'm going to try and continue to do until after the sleep study next Saturday night. I seem to be more awake since I've been on the Wellbutrin, even though it's only been a few days.
I'm also not going to count my walking around the house from room to room as exercise for now, as it makes me feel like I can eat more calories! So, until the surgery, I am not going to count it on MyFitnessPal as calories burned.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
FACT: The only way to physically shrink your stomach is through surgical procedures. Your stomach expands to accommodate the amount of food that you eat and goes back to its original size once the food passes on to the intestines. The only effect cutting down on the amount of food will have on your stomach is your appetite but not the size of the stomach itself.
She was very happy that I am pursuing weight loss surgery. She tried to suggest a program that combined diet pills and diet to help me lose the 30 pounds that I need to before surgery, but it was very expensive! I explained that my PCP already offered to prescribe Phentermine but I refused. I don't like the side effects.
I did mention the lack of motivation that I have for school, though. It seems to have started around the same time she lowered my dose of Celexa. She was concerned about the high dose I was on before. She prescribed some Wellbutrin because she said it's likely that depression is causing it. She also said she'd like to see me in counseling and I told her I was going to look into it after the surgery. Right now I don't drive and have to rely on my husband or brother, which limits the days and time that I am open. Once I lose weight I should be able to fit behind the steering wheel of my car! I was able to before I traded my Taurus in, but I had to have the seat back and the steering wheel up as high as they would go! I wasn't comfortable with that setup at all! Anyway, I see counseling in my future! For now, I hope the Wellbutrin works!